Do Not Worry

My devotions this morning were in Matthew.  I was telling my mom earlier that I find doing the small sections that are assigned in MFW have a greater impact on me then trying to read a whole chapter.  Its almost like I can digest it and really think about just a few verses.  I felt guilty at one point for not having any "deeper"  more "spiritual" devotions.  But God allows things for a reason, and I feel like this is what He is allowing for this season of my life.

Back to this morning:  Matthew 6:25-34 -  The theme:  Do Not Worry.

As a great worrier, this was very eye opening.  Sure I have read it before.  Heard sermons on it before.  But this time it really hit me.  God gave me a sense of peace as I digested these few lines.

If God watches over the birds of the field, surely He watches over me.

And the grass of the field He clothes.  Where is my faith?

I have spent too much time lately worried over things that I don't have any control over to begin with.  I have been stressed.  Miserable.  Anxious.  Depressed.  I over analyze things which then sinks me back into any rut I might have gotten out of.  And for what?  It hasn't changed anything.  All my worrying has changed not one single thing!

All I did was lose time.  Precious, valuable time I could have spent enjoying life.

I don't want to live stressed out so much.  I don't want to just be happy, I want to be JOYFUL, to feel joyful. I want to have happiness despite circumstances = joy.

My new goal is to worry less.  This will be a daily struggle, but in time I would like to be second nature for me. To get through this struggle though I will have to cling to those verses.  Use them as a lifeline when I feel hopeless.

For today only.  Tomorrow hasn't come yet.